This Thing Called Love

What is it sef? What makes your heart do flip flops over one guy and you can't even shock a beat out of it for another? why will you KNOW this person is so very wrong for you but still stick with them and hope and pray that they love you back? yet you meet a person: sweet, understanding, loving, utterly devoted to you, eyes only for you......and you are bored to freakn death!! you feel trapped and you are looking desperately for a way out.

then theres the breakup. they hurt YOU. dumped YOU. cheated on YOU ....and yet you're the one feeling like a piece of shit. and whats the deal with karma huh? seems the people who hurt you still havent gotten their come uppance. and you're there waiting. hoping that bloody FINALLY they'll realise they messed up. not that you want them back (although sometimes you really do) but couldn't they feel some remorse about how they treated you?

sigh. the whole thing is just annoying. like i should curl up in my shell and never come out. but noooo. you have to "move on". and not "lose hope". and "keep believing" that "the one for you is out there". o and that forget the "not letting one spoiling all the others out for you". bitch please!.........and yet you hope. more fishes in the sea they say. you dream. "when one door closes another opens". you pray."theres someone out there for everyonr". and patiently trod on. fixing little things along the way. working to make yourself perfect for that one. forgetting (quite conveniently) the last heartbreak. that gut wrenching cry you had that last time around.

this thing called love grrrr