This Thing Called Love

What is it sef? What makes your heart do flip flops over one guy and you can't even shock a beat out of it for another? why will you KNOW this person is so very wrong for you but still stick with them and hope and pray that they love you back? yet you meet a person: sweet, understanding, loving, utterly devoted to you, eyes only for you......and you are bored to freakn death!! you feel trapped and you are looking desperately for a way out.

then theres the breakup. they hurt YOU. dumped YOU. cheated on YOU ....and yet you're the one feeling like a piece of shit. and whats the deal with karma huh? seems the people who hurt you still havent gotten their come uppance. and you're there waiting. hoping that bloody FINALLY they'll realise they messed up. not that you want them back (although sometimes you really do) but couldn't they feel some remorse about how they treated you?

sigh. the whole thing is just annoying. like i should curl up in my shell and never come out. but noooo. you have to "move on". and not "lose hope". and "keep believing" that "the one for you is out there". o and that forget the "not letting one spoiling all the others out for you". bitch please!.........and yet you hope. more fishes in the sea they say. you dream. "when one door closes another opens". you pray."theres someone out there for everyonr". and patiently trod on. fixing little things along the way. working to make yourself perfect for that one. forgetting (quite conveniently) the last heartbreak. that gut wrenching cry you had that last time around.

this thing called love grrrr

Rumpole :(

Sir John Mortimer, the creator of the great RUMPOLE is dead. He is survived by millions of adoring fans the world over and thousands of lawyers who owe their even considering law to his AWESOME books.....oh yeah and he has a daughter and some other relatives too...

adieu Sir Mortimer, still loving your books after SO many years :)

A little more on my new year res

so i'm a bit of a geek yeh, and this year i'm trying a lil something called "losing weight". its a brand new very revolutionary tactic aimed at making you look good and being o whats the funny word? its at the tip of my tongue..........o yeah "healthy".

in my quest for more knowledge (as if all the one i already possess has benefited me in any way right?), i stumbled upon this BBC article. the entire concept just appeals to me all around (yeah i'm feverishly writing notes again SIGH)

2009

so again my new year's celebration was....non existent. spent new year's eve driving the twelve hours back to my home base so i could enter the new year surrounded by the new life i have just started to build for myself.......

12 midnight found me attending mass in front of my television (too exhausted to drive to mass and then drive myself back). watched a lil more tv (God dont these people KNOW its a new year??) then went to bed. woke up new year morning.........and went to work. yep! spent new year's day at work. woo hoo

so anyway i put into God's hands my plans for the New Year:

1. LOSE WEIGHT : eat better, exercise more
2. BANK PAY: save more, reduce my debt
3. do something about my dreams instead of wallowing in misery wishing i were somewhere else

hmmmm lets see........... o thats it i guess. my hope for this year arent that much. i'm not too excited about this year and i dont see anything overly fantastic happening (sigh there i go again.....is that thunder i hear?).

so what are YOUR new year resolutions? are they as sucky as mine? or are you way more ambitious? and o yeah before i forget:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!